“James, could you please focus?” a sharp voice woke me up. I was daydreaming during English class, and it was Mr. Frost, our boring teacher who shrilled at me.
“I am so sorry sir,” I apologized and stared at the white board. However, I was unable to concentrate as a thought bugged me. It stopped me from carrying on with my English assignment which led to Mr. Frost shouting at me again.
I am a sophomore in Overseas Family School which makes it hard for me to cope with the heavy burden of workload. But at the time I need to focus the most, I began to become all nostalgic. It was not even gradual; the thought of my childhood just hit me all of a sudden and started disturbing me since then.
Sometimes I get buried deep in my own thoughts till I suffer from extreme nostalgia. Why did my childhood pass so fast? What have I done during my childhood, when I was so pure, so ignorant to realize the true side of the world? I only believed in the facets of what I saw, which seemed mystical and somewhat related to my destiny.
It seems that I am unable to get out of this. I keep thinking of my primary school friends whom I lost contact with since the graduation ceremony. I can even clearly remember my best friend, Gregor, and my first love, Joel.
“James, what is wrong with you today?” Another sharp voice ringed my ears. Waking up, I found out my assignment was all wet with drool. I quickly wiped it off, and started finishing off the assignment. I was quite sure I would get a grade lower than C for sure as I wrote not more than 150 words for an essay. Sighing, I desperately implored Mr. Frost for five more minutes. His glance told me that not even one extra minute is allowed, so I folded my assignment in half, and threw it into the dust bin. I gave Mr. Frost a look that got him really annoyed, and walked out of the classroom.
I went out of school, but had nowhere to go. I just walked home, sat at my desk, and began to look back at my miserable life.
Even at this moment I'm thinking about how I should have studied harder. It won't make any difference in my life, but that's what I do regret. Right now, with a cup of coffee in my hand, I'm looking out the window of my house. There, in the backyard, is an old tree. My father used to tell me that it had been planted by my great grandfather when he first bought this house. Well, that's not what I want to talk about today, though. What I want to talk about is my childhood friend Gregor.
When Gregor and I were seven, we used to climb the old tree. We climbed up and jumped down from the lowest branch. We used to.. until that day. I clearly remember the day he fell the wrong way and cracked his skull. Poor fellow.. I heard he is still in the hospital.
Yes, Gregor was my best friend. He was even there when I asked Joel out for dinner. He had always been on my side no matter what happened till his parents declared I was not allowed to go near him after he fell off from the tree. He was my only friend, and I was able to confide all my secrets to him.
Ever since he moved into hospital, I went back to my normal life; that is, talking to no one and smiling at no one. I believed that all the people around me are enemies and therefore, not trustworthy. I believed that friends are useless, and all they do is sucking out my money and time. However, this faith did not last for long. As time passed by, I became lonelier and lonelier, and no one was there for me.
Even at this moment, I'm regretting my hermitlike life. I regret that I didn't make any friends. I especially regret that I never had any girlfriend. I can still remember when Joel, a girl I met at my elementary school, turned me down. I can still remember the exact words.
"Jong Hyun, you are nice, but you are not my type." That got me so depressed that I became reluctant to make any more friends. Now, I know that I should have been more active. I should have asked more girls out.. Or wait. Maybe it's not too late yet. I will hit on every girl I see from now on.
I stood up, changed into my favorite clothes, and strolled out of my house. As I walked down the narrow alley, I saw a lot of women in their various ages. When I passed by a girl around my age, I smiled at her, showing my bright red gum. When my target was an old woman, I accosted her and asked her politely whether she needed some help. My plan was to be nice to every girl I see, and put them all on my side.
Okay. I'm going to make this real good. I murmured to myself as I opened the door to the outer world, the door to end this creepiness dwelling inside of me that drove everybody away. I will now reborn as a Casanova, the king of chicks. Although it is challenging for me to change my habit so abruptly, but hell, my decision is as firm as the good old Berlin Wall. You chicks just wait and see, I will be there in no time.
It would not be easy. I had always been alone, so it would be really tough for me to change my hermitlike personality into an amiable one. But I will make sure I try my best. I will try my best to become gregarious, and fit into the society.
From now on, I will attend every party held as long as there are girls. From now on, I will learn the techniques of asking girls out from my best friend, Peter Si, the greatest Casanova of our era. I heard that he fell in love with Joel, so I guess I have to let her go as i is impossible to compete against this guy. However, my golden age begins today. I will take over the world, with every girl on my side, and we will march together arm in arm.